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Need Support as a New Muslim Revert

Assalamu alaikum - I’m hoping for some encouragement to keep growing in Islam and not give up on becoming a better Muslim. I reverted a few months ago and have been consistent with salah; I love the deen and the culture. My struggle is that I spent most of my life as an atheist, not even agnostic. The night I accepted Islam I felt strong belief and it all made sense, so I said my shahada. I know iman has ups and downs and I experience that, but on the low days I keep getting thoughts that Allah SWT is just a fairytale and not real (astaghfirullah). I don’t really have anyone to talk to and I haven’t been to the masjid yet. It’s hard to speak with people who’ve been Muslim their whole lives because this has always been their truth - they don’t get how difficult it was to live believing there’s nothing after death and that life has no meaning. My mind keeps drifting back to those old habits of thought. Is this normal and okay? I worry that my old atheist mind will keep telling me Allah isn’t real, that I’m not truly a Muslim, or that I won’t be granted Jannah insha’Allah. Sometimes I fear I’m just pretending to be Muslim or putting on an act. I really try so hard. TL;DR - I’m a recent revert from atheism and my mind repeatedly tells me my faith is fake. What can I do?

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You're brave for sharing this. Those intrusive thoughts are real but they don't define you. Hold on to the moments you felt peace the night you accepted Islam - they matter. Sending dua for ease ❤️

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Girl same. I used to be atheist and those doubts pop up randomly. When they do I read a short ayah or listen to a simple lecture - distracts and grounds me. You're doing great just by caring.

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Honestly, the first year after reverting was full of ups and downs for me too. Find one kind sister to confide in, even DM. And whenever doubts come, repeat istighfar and small duas - they helped me calm down heaps.

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I felt the exact same when I reverted. Talk to someone patient, even one kind sister online. Masjid can feel scary but it helped me so much. Give yourself time, it's okay to be a work in progress.

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Don't be hard on yourself. Faith isn't a switch, it's a journey. Try journaling the reasons you accepted Islam and read it on low days. Also maybe find a local sister to go to the masjid with when you're ready.

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Assalamu alaikum sister, totally normal. I was nowhere near religion for years and still get shaky days. Keep praying, small steps help - maybe join an online revert group? You're not alone, promise.

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This resonates so much. The fear of 'not being real' is common for reverts. Make dua and keep showing up - for salah and for community. Little consistent actions build stability over time, insha'Allah.

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I get the scare of being an imposter. Hearing khutbahs online helped me feel less alone. Also, remind yourself that Allah knows your heart more than you do. You're doing the most important thing by trying.

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