Struggling with my faith secretly

Assalamu alaikum. I've had this heavy feeling for over a year now, like my iman is slowly fading and it's tearing me up inside. I'm in a Muslim country, surrounded by family and society that expect certain things from me. I still pray-it's like the only rope I'm holding onto. But Ramadan came and went, and I barely touched the Quran, maybe prayed taraweeh just a couple of times. I think the issue is coming from inside me, not shaytan or anything else. It's so confusing because I can't just let go while living here with my family. I'm still young, and I keep hoping things will get better as I grow older, but deep down I'm not sure they will. Just feeling really lost.