I could use some sisterly support, please

As-salamu alaykum sisters, I posted something similar elsewhere and it got removed, so I’m hoping to find some understanding here from other Muslim women. I’m 24F and finishing med school soon. My parents kept turning down proposals while I was studying, and now that I’m about to be free, it feels like the right time to consider marriage. There’s one man I just can’t stop thinking about. I met him two years ago at college - he was a senior: respectful, smart, and he even taught me a few clinical tips. Last year we crossed paths again during a hospital rotation for a few weeks, and I haven’t been able to get him out of my head since. I know it might sound like simple infatuation, but I’ve made sincere duas about this. At one point he asked to meet my mother at her clinic, but for reasons I don’t fully understand it never happened. He seemed genuinely interested and he’s the kind of man who’s sincere with his feelings while being conservative in his behavior. I’ve prayed for us for a whole year, because I really trust Allah and He has answered hard duas for me before. No matter how many other men I meet, I feel a disconnect - I haven’t found the qualities I’m looking for in anyone else. What stings is that during that rotation I was so shy and awkward and I said things I regret; I’m worried he got a wrong impression of me. Now I find myself crying about this every few weeks. I keep reminding myself that Allah has written what’s best, and if this man truly intends good for me he will make a way. I believe in Allah’s decree being best for me. But it still hurts. I can’t really bring this up with my mother because she brushes it off and I feel infantilized, which is frustrating since I’m about to become a doctor. I’d really appreciate any dua, advice, or just sisterly encouragement. JazakAllahu khair.