Holding onto Hope When Faith Feels Faint

Salam, everyone. To be honest, I’ve always struggled with my faith, and with all the pain and injustice in the world, I’ve found my belief in Allah (SWT) being really tested. My own life feels so difficult, and the world seems so dark. It feels like the wicked prosper while the innocent suffer. I get so frustrated when people say, "Trust in Allah's plan" or "There will be justice on the Day of Judgement." But when? I see those who hurt me living their best lives, while I'm left with my reputation ruined and too anxious to even leave my house. I feel abandoned and alone, like no one believes in me anymore. So here I am, trying to find any shred of meaning. I make du'a, asking Allah why my life has turned out this way, praying for things to get better. But the relief hasn’t come yet. And then seeing the news-the wars, the corruption, the people causing unimaginable suffering to others and seeming to face no consequences-it’s too much. My heart breaks for the victims, especially the children. It makes me physically sick. When I tried to tell my family I was struggling with depression, they said I just needed to have stronger iman. I’ve tried so hard, but I haven’t felt that closeness. It makes me wonder… does Allah hear me? Is He watching all this suffering? I want to believe, I really do, but sometimes **my hope in the basic goodness of people feels stronger than my trust in the divine plan right now.** I still believe there are good, righteous people out there. I just make du'a that they-and all of us-can find peace and live in a world free from this evil. Please remember me in your prayers.