Feeling Worn Out by One Trial After Another - Please Pray for Me

Assalamu Alaikum. I wanted to share what’s been happening because I’m feeling really overwhelmed and could use duas. Six years ago I developed tinnitus - that constant ringing in my head and ears. Three years later I woke up wanting to end my life, and it took another three years for things to improve a bit. This year has been especially hard: I lost my rabbit, I lost my job, and a hopeful opportunity fell through. Now, as if that wasn’t enough, I’ve started having pulsatile tinnitus - a whooshing sound synced with my heartbeat. I asked him not to test me like this again, and I’m trying to be patient and keep pleasing him, but I’m getting no response. I’m worried the GP will be as unhelpful as before. I did have a cold last week, which may have made things worse. I feel so sad and heavy, and angry that I’m being put through such a big trial. It’s becoming hard to concentrate on my salah and reading Qur’an. I’m exhausted from one test after another and I cry every day. Please make dua for me - I don’t have the strength to raise my hands anymore and I keep coming away feeling empty. It seems nothing ever comes easy. I’m tired of pleading and begging. JazakAllah khair for any duas and comforting words.