feeling so alone - is Allah still with me?
Assalamu alaikum. i'm lebanese iraqi Sunni muslim and i'm really struggling right now. i've been trying to be a good muslim, praying and reading Qur'an day and night, but i keep getting hurt at school and i feel so alone. why is this happening to me? is Allah with me? will He hold those who hurt me accountable? i'm in year 12 studying biology, chemistry and psychology. i actually love studying and try my best, but lately everything's been falling apart. yesterday after school four girls i thought were my friends pushed and shoved me in the middle of the road. they shouted at me and one girl said, “shut up ur dad is an uber driver.” i ran home and sobbed to my dad, asking if we could move. we can’t - it’s too late and my grades aren’t high enough for another school. today they followed me and screamed things like “EWWWWWW ITS KATYAAAAAAA.” i ran out of class crying and begged my dad for help. this has gotten me so low that i've started self-harming. i don't know what else to do. i don't want to drop out, but sometimes i feel like ending it all. please help, give me advice or dua. what steps can i take? how can i find support and protect myself while keeping my faith? i'm desperate for help.