Feeling Really Down and Lost Right Now
Asalamu Alaikum everyone. I'm in my mid-20s and honestly, I’m feeling really lost these days. It feels like everything in my life is slowly falling apart - nothing seems to go my way, and I’m finding it hard to stay hopeful. Just so you know, I pray five times a day and try to read Quran regularly. I love Allah deeply and truly believe He’s the best planner - everything happens by His will. But lately, holding on to that faith has been tough because it feels like nothing is moving forward. Here’s what’s been heavy on my heart: 1. I graduated recently and have been applying for jobs, but no luck yet. Meanwhile, all my friends are moving on - getting jobs, starting their master’s, or taking professional exams. I just feel stuck and don’t know what to do next. 2. About a month ago, I lost my beloved cat so suddenly. He was healthy, then out of nowhere, we found out he had a serious illness - and within a week, he was gone. Losing him broke me in a way I can’t explain. It feels like a piece of my heart went with him. 3. I’ve also been praying for a car. My dad sold mine almost two years ago and promised we’d get another. I really needed it last year during university, especially since public transport here isn’t safe for women. I prayed a lot hoping he’d change his mind, but he says we can’t afford it - even though I feel like if he prioritized it, we could. It hurts because I really need it, but it feels like my needs aren’t being noticed. 4. Lastly, I’m at an age where everyone around me is getting married or at least in serious relationships. And here I am - single, feeling left out, and honestly lonely. I know Allah has someone written for me, but it still aches to see others moving forward. I’ve been making dua for these things sincerely, many times with tears in sujood. But it feels like nothing is changing. I know Allah sees my pain and His timing is perfect, but right now, it hurts so much. Sometimes I wonder if Allah loves me or is pleased with me. Please, if you don’t have kind words, just pass by. I’m only sharing this because I really need some gentle support right now.