Feeling Overwhelmed and Struggling to Stay Patient - Need Advice

Assalamu alaikum everyone, I hope this finds kind hearts I’m a recent graduate and it’s been over a year since I finished university, but I’m still without a job. I’ve been trying to keep hope, but lately I feel like I’m falling apart. I had a difficult, even traumatic, childhood that I won’t go into, but it still affects me a lot. There’s so much I want to say and I can’t always find the words. My mental health has declined a lot these past months. I barely eat, I don’t go out or see friends, and most days I stay in my room crying over how my life has turned out. It’s reached the point where it’s affecting my body and my day-to-day has gotten so hard. I keep applying for jobs but nothing pans out. I only had one interview and they ghosted me months ago - that really destroyed whatever little motivation I had left. Almost nothing in my life seems to be going right. Friendships and relationships have fallen apart, I’m jobless and broke, and it feels like every effort fails. It’s weighing me down. I do believe this is a test from Allah and I try to practice sabr, but I’m desperate for relief. It’s been more than a year of nonstop hardship and I’m exhausted. I’ve seen a few doctors and done tests, but they say it’s stress and it will pass. It hasn’t. I’m still crying nearly every day. Being at home doesn’t help - there’s constant arguing and tension that makes things worse. I’ve told my family how much this affects me and I’ve even cried in front of them, but nothing changes. My mother thinks it’s the evil eye and has had me do ruqyah for months; I respect that but I haven’t felt any improvement. Often I feel like a burden, and although people know I’m struggling, no one really helps. Where I live, mental health support is scarce. Therapy and proper resources are hard to find, and I feel so alone. I battle daily suicidal thoughts that I try to push away. I keep up my five daily prayers and make duas, but I still haven’t felt an ease. It feels like the test hasn’t let up since 2024 began. Every morning I wake up wishing I hadn’t. I’m tired, jobless, anxious, and sometimes wish Allah would take me from this cruel dunya. My body feels weak and I want to leave this environment because I know it’s making things worse. As a woman, I can’t simply move out on my own, and my family opposes the idea of me marrying just so I can get a job and be settled - they haven’t even discussed marriage with me, which worries me. I feel trapped and hopeless. If anyone has gone through something similar, how did you find a way out? How do you keep faith and hope when everything seems impossible? JazakAllah khair to anyone who reads this. I just needed to share and get it off my chest.