Feeling Like My Faith is Wavering
Assalamu alaikum everyone. I'm struggling with something heavy and I need to share it, hoping someone can relate. My father is abusive-verbally, mentally, and physically-and it affects me, my mother, and my brother. For years, we've been making dua to get out of this situation, my mom even longer. Every day, we ask Allah SWT for a way out, for safety, for peace, but nothing seems to change. The first few days of Ramadan this year were especially hard. Instead of feeling closer to Allah, we were just trying to survive in the same painful environment. I've always loved Ramadan; even when I wasn't consistent with my salah during the year, Ramadan would bring me back. But this time, I feel empty. I don't want to pray, and I don't want to make dua because it feels like it's not working. I don't want to lose my iman-Islam is the only thing that's ever made sense to me. But I don't understand why we're stuck here, why we have to keep waiting while getting hurt. I don't want peace to only come after death. Has anyone else been through something like this? How do you hold onto your faith when it feels like your duas aren't being answered and your situation stays the same?