Why Does Allah Still Feel Distant Even Though I Believe in My Heart?
Assalamu alaikum, everyone. I'm hoping someone can help me understand what I'm going through right now. I became Muslim not too long ago after spending months learning about Islam. In my mind, I am completely sure that Allah is the one true God. Islam just makes sense to me, and I truly believe it's the truth. But I grew up without any religion, and even though my mind accepts it, the idea of Allah still feels kind of unreal. It's like I know He exists, but my heart hasn't fully caught up yet. Sometimes it still feels abstract - I get it logically, but it's hard to really feel that there is a Divine Being who sees me, hears my prayers, and controls everything. I've started praying isha to learn and to try to feel closer to Allah. I'm fasting this Ramadan and reading the Qur'an every day (this is my second time reading it). I make du'a and ask Allah to guide me and open my heart. But I don't feel any big change. No strong emotions. And honestly, that worries me because I don't want to be among those who turn away. Is it normal for new Muslims - especially ones who grew up without faith - for Allah to feel surreal at the beginning? Does that feeling go away with time? I'm scared that because it still feels abstract, maybe there's something wrong with my iman. Any advice would really mean a lot to me. JazakAllah khair.