Feeling like I'm losing my family - seeking comfort in Surah Yusuf
As-salamu alaykum. I started reading Surah Yusuf because it feels like my family is drifting away and I need patience and guidance. A bit of background: My youngest sister from middle school has been acting very hostile toward me. She makes up stories and tells our mother, which then leads to arguments. I've cried many times - the sister I used to be so close to now seems to resent me. My relationship with my mom has never been great. She used to say I was too extreme for wearing hijab and in the past few years told my other two sisters that I was part of some extremist group and warned them not to end up like me. My college-age sister used to be very devoted in her teens, but since starting university she says she no longer feels connected and stopped praying. She talks about believing in the “universe” instead and tells me that Allah can’t help me, questioning why I maintain my faith when I’m still struggling to find a career. She insists she’ll be successful right out of college and uses that to criticize my choices. My youngest sister also seems to have drifted from Islam. She attends Quran class but doesn’t really study - reading the same pages for months and skipping online classes. She blames the teachers and claims a language barrier. I found out she also talks about the “universe” and has even said she wishes the family would stop being Muslim so she wouldn’t have to dress modestly, could date a boyfriend, and wouldn’t be forced to pray when our mom nags or shouts. I’ve blamed my mom before because she encouraged them not to wear hijab, to wear makeup, and has been harsh toward others, but I’ve stepped back and chose my own peace instead of constantly confronting her about raising the kids this way. I keep wondering if this is a test or a consequence - why did the sisters she loved together drift away from the faith, while I’m the one holding on? I feel heartbroken and very alone when it comes to speaking about Islam in my family. It often feels like they side with mom and try to get me in trouble. I’m turning to dua and to the story of Prophet Yusuf (alayhi as-salam) for patience and hope. If anyone has experienced family members leaving the faith, or has advice on how to stay strong, keep loving them, and find community support, I would really appreciate it. JazakAllah khair.