Feeling insecure next to Arab sisters, need some perspective
As-salamu alaykum. I feel a bit silly admitting this, but as a tanned desi sister who wears hijab and has deep dark circles, I get insecure around Arab women, especially those who wear hijab. I don’t think it’s just colourism - I genuinely find Arab women of all skin tones beautiful. It’s more their facial features and how they carry themselves that I admire. That said, colourism is real in our communities. Growing up I heard aunties and even my own mum praise fairer skin, and there’s this unspoken belief that Arab women with fair, porcelain-like skin are the ideal of beauty. When I did Umrah and wasn’t wearing makeup in the blessed cities, I honestly didn’t care about my looks, but I still noticed many Arab sisters who looked effortlessly stunning without makeup - no dark circles, more even skin tone. It made me feel more conscious of my own hyperpigmentation and dark circles. Please don’t tell me it’s all surgery - I can tell the difference between surgical changes and natural beauty. And at weddings or community events, many Arab women really do look breathtaking. It’s hard not to compare. I’m in my mid-twenties now and feel like my “glow-up” time has passed. People used to say I looked so young - at 22 I got guessed as 18 - but now people estimate my actual age and it feels like I’m aging. I can’t believe the phase when I might have shown my beauty in a halal, modest way feels like it’s over. To make it more complicated, I’m talking to someone who’s Arab and part of me thinks he could find someone from his own culture more easily. I know this sounds like self-hate and I’m being honest about how I feel. I’d appreciate any advice or reminders from sisters about confidence, self-acceptance, and focusing on what matters in Islam. JazakAllah khair.