Feeling Completely Overwhelmed Right Now
Just finished up my bachelor's degree. I'm 23 and have put in applications for some master's programs, plus one advanced diploma-I actually did an interview for that, but didn't get in. Still waiting to hear back on the master's applications. My dad keeps encouraging me to apply widely to improve my chances, but my science GPA is kind of low and my overall average is just okay. Honestly, I feel like a total letdown and wonder if I'm even capable of anything. Some days, I just cry because I feel so burdensome. On top of all this, I reverted to Islam about a year and a half ago-my family still doesn't know. Life just feels like one struggle after another. I do trust Allah, Alhamdulillah, and believe He knows best, but sometimes it's like I'm drowning in it all. I've been making a lot of istighfar lately, asking for forgiveness and strength. I feel really isolated too, unsure where to begin, what steps to take next, or who to turn to. In these moments, I find myself whispering, 'Ya Allah, do You not see my pain?' But deep down, I hold onto the hope and dua that He is with me through every trial.