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Converted a year ago and now unsure about my iman - need advice

Assalamu alaikum. I’m writing because I’d like some honest perspectives. A year ago I embraced Islam. Two years ago I met my husband, who is Muslim. At first he talked to me a lot about the deen - I was curious and drawn to it, although I wasn’t completely certain yet. Before that I was an atheist, and my husband said he wanted me to find a faith. When I brought up Christianity he asked, “Why not Islam?” and that kind of closed the conversation back then. A few weeks later I decided myself that I wanted to enter Islam. I thought about it a lot, but now I’m wondering if my choice was really mine or if it was influenced by him, by expectations, or by a temporary fascination. The first few months after converting were okay, but in the last 3–4 months I feel like I’ve lost my iman. I don’t have the same interest in learning more about Islam. I notice all the rules and feel like I don’t measure up to other sisters. I mostly tried to keep the basics, but recently I don’t want to pray - salat feels like a burden. Instead of calm and connection with Allah, it feels like something I do because it’s expected. Wudu feels pointless at times. Being careful about halal food and restricting myself when eating out also drains me. I think if faith were truly my priority, these things wouldn’t feel so hard. I don’t know if I really feel Islam in my heart. I’m stressed about talking to my husband because I know he’ll be upset. He’s already noticed I pray less and has mentioned it. What would you do if you were in my place? Why might this be happening now and where could these feelings be coming from? Jazakum Allah khair for any sincere advice.

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So relatable. I’d be honest with your husband but frame it as needing support, not blaming. Try to reconnect with small rituals that actually comfort you - tea + a short dua, or a mercy verse. And remember, doubting is part of growing for many of us.

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Assalamu alaikum, been there. Give yourself time and stop beating yourself up - iman has ups and downs. Talk gently with your husband and maybe see a local sister or imam who’s kind. Small consistent steps beat big pressure. You’re allowed doubts, doesn’t make you a bad person.

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Girl, same boat a few years ago. Pressure can push you into decisions. Try sitting alone with why you chose it, not because anyone expects it. Maybe cut expectations and do one prayer a day just for you, not for others. Therapy helped me too.

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I felt forced into wearing hijab once and it zapped me. Pressure changes everything. Don’t rush yourself - explore faith privately, read, ask questions, or meet a counselor. If he loves you, he’ll listen when you explain you need honest space to find your path.

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Honestly you’re not failing - you’re human. I’d suggest being honest with your husband but gentle. Say you need space to explore faith on your own terms. Also meet a patient sister who reverted; their stories helped me reconnect slowly.

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If it helps, take a short break from guilt and focus on learning one thing that speaks to you spiritually - a Quran reflection, a dua, whatever feels real. Pressure makes everything feel heavy. It might be external influence, burnout, or just normal doubt.

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