Assalamu alaikum - I'm Struggling and Need Hope
Assalamu alaikum. I’m really struggling and wanted to share how I feel, even if it’s messy. I’ve been having thoughts about ending my life and I keep worrying about whether that would doom me forever. I know suicide is haram, and that scares me, but I can’t help feeling overwhelmed. I feel unlovable and like I’ll never be wanted by a husband because of a condition that might make having children difficult. I’m told I’m pretty and I’m smart, but inside I feel worthless. I feel like a disappointment to my family and I keep thinking no one will ever truly love me. I don’t know what to do or where to turn. I wanted to ask if anyone has advice from an Islamic perspective - how do you hold on when you feel like this? What can I do to feel worthy again? If there are prayers, duas, or practical steps that helped you or people you know, I’d appreciate hearing them. And if anyone knows how to get immediate help in a kind, faith-sensitive way, please tell me. JazakAllah khair.