Assalamu Alaikum - I had Ruqyah and felt something happen, what should I do?
Assalamu Alaikum. I’m posting because I’m honestly confused and don’t know how to make sense of what took place. For years I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety, and a constant sense of unreality. My concentration is gone, studying is impossible, praying feels difficult, and I mostly stay at home. My parents eventually took me to a trusted sheikh for Ruqyah. I thought it was just depression and didn’t really believe in sihr or possession. During the session the sheikh asked me to close my eyes and began reciting Qur’an. At first nothing seemed to happen and I was thinking, “This must be psychological.” Then he suddenly started addressing something directly, asking whether it was male or female. That’s when everything changed. I felt my awareness slip away and my body started screaming and sobbing on its own. I could hear myself but I wasn’t in control - it felt like I was pushed aside inside my own mind, watching what was happening from a distance. The sheikh gently tapped my forehead a couple of times, I came back right away, and we ended the session. Now I have more questions than answers. I don’t know whether I should go back to the sheikh, or whether what happened was spiritual, psychological, or a mix of both. Has anyone experienced anything similar? I’d appreciate hearing from brothers or sisters who’ve been through this and any advice on what steps to take next (medical check, further Ruqyah with a reputable scholar, dua, family support, etc.). JazakAllahu khair.