Assalamu alaikum - Feeling lost and needing strength, what can I do?
Assalamu alaikum, I’ve written before but this time I really need advice. I’m 23, from Ukraine, and going through a very hard patch. I don’t even know where to begin. For about two months I’ve had no stable home - I’m staying with a friend for now but it’s temporary. I have health issues (an enlarged spleen that hurts), and I’m stuck with huge debts after being defrauded. My parents have stopped talking to me because of pressure from debt collectors. I tried to work, but almost all of my small income goes to loan payments (around $300). I barely have enough for food or medicine. I’m physically weak and mentally exhausted. Sometimes I just sit and wonder how I’m still here. I don’t want to give up, but I’m scared and worn out. I want to recover, to live a normal life again - I just don’t know how to handle this constant hopelessness and guilt. I was also released this month and I’m literally starving right now. It feels like nobody cares; I don’t want to be a burden on anyone, I just don’t know which way to turn. AAAAAA. If anyone has practical ideas - charities that help Muslims in need, local zakat or community resources, ways to get medical help or debt counseling, or dua and advice to keep my faith strong while taking steps forward - I’d be so grateful. JazakAllah khair for reading and for any help or duas.