Asking for dua and advice about starting to wear the hijab
Assalamu alaykum, I'm trying to figure this out and could use some sincere advice and dua. Alhamdulillah I've been getting closer to my deen and I try to follow what a Muslim should, except I haven't started wearing the hijab yet. I dress modestly, never showing skin or wearing tight clothes, so it feels like the natural next step would be to start covering my hair. I really admire sisters who wear the hijab and sometimes feel a little envious when I see them. I'm part of my school's Muslim student association but I often avoid events because I'm worried people will judge me for not wearing hijab. I keep telling myself that if Allah commands it then I should do it and not overthink it, but a few things keep holding me back: 1) I'm very insecure. I've literally never been complimented in my life, and that affects my self-esteem and mental health every day. The one thing I don't feel insecure about is my hair, so covering it feels like it would remove whatever little confidence I have left. 2) No one close to me wears the hijab. I thought maybe seeing other women I know wear it would give me courage, but none of my family or friends do. I've asked my mom to wear it and even offered to start together, but she just says "I wish" and tells me it's too late for her. 3) In my South Asian culture, women usually don't wear a full hijab. People often just loosely drape a scarf and take it off at events. I do the same when I visit my home country. The idea of covering properly some days and not others makes me uncomfortable, and honestly a full, consistent hijab might be seen as "extreme" by people where I'm from. 4) My father is Ismaili and doesn't approve of the hijab. The first three reasons are things I try to work on myself, but this one feels out of my control. He strongly disagrees with the hijab and that makes it really hard for me to do it openly. I make dua every day asking Allah to give me the strength to start wearing the hijab, but I still wake up conflicted. I'm venting more than anything, but if anyone has practical advice - how to build confidence, talk to family, or gradually make the switch while respecting my situation - I'd be so grateful. Please keep me in your duas.