A Weight Lifted From My Heart

Assalamu alaikum. I was born into a Muslim family but left the deen for a long time because of a very difficult experience I went through when I was young. By Allah's mercy, I came back to Islam about six years later. The severe sadness and dark thoughts that had followed me for years finally started to lift a few months after I returned. But lately, I feel I've been drifting again, even though I'm still trying to pray. Those heavy thoughts are creeping back. I feel so alone and have a deep desire to get married and build a righteous home. But then I look at myself and think I'm not good enough, that I'll never be chosen, and these fears make me feel hopeless. Sometimes the struggle feels too heavy to carry. I'm sharing this hoping for your duas.