Yearning for Halal Love, Assalamualaikum

Assalamualaikum, I don’t usually share like this but I’ve been holding this in for a while. I know Allah is with me and loves me, and I make dua for my naseeb - the husband who fits what I hope for - since 2023. I wish he would come sooner. I’m so tired of feeling lonely. Everywhere I look people seem to have love - my parents, non‑Muslims, even Muslims in haram situations. I see it on social media, in books and movies, and it makes me long for the same kind of connection (but halal, of course). I feel guilty even admitting this, since I believe Allah will answer my prayers, yet waiting wears me down. I want someone to ease this ache in my chest. I’m getting closer to Allah, but I also crave companionship and marriage, even if I’m still young. I imagine him often - I write poems, I think about him every day, he’s become my ideal husband in my mind. I talk about him with friends like I know him. All the stories and films I consume have raised my standards (which isn’t bad), but they also give me a picture of what unconditional love could feel like and leave a temporary void when reality doesn’t match. I’ve always been mature, kind and respectful. I try to be patient and trust Allah, but I’m human and tired sometimes. It scares me to feel like maybe I can’t feel love properly or that no one will make me feel that way. My younger siblings have had relationships before marriage and my mom - a revert who dated in her teens - once joked, “Are you going to be lonely forever?” I laughed it off, but inside I really just want to know when my turn will come. I want real, halal love. I want a sincere spouse who shares my faith and values. When will that blessing come? Please pray for me, and forgive the rambling - I needed to get this out.