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Struggling with faith as a Muslim woman – has anyone else felt this?

As-salamu alaykum. I don't even know where to start. I used to be so sure about my belief in Allah, but now... I'm not even sure if I can call myself Muslim anymore. I still pray five times a day, mostly on time, alhamdulillah. The physical acts aren't the issue. But inside, my heart feels empty. I don't feel Allah's presence like I used to. There was a time I was lazy with salah and almost gave up, but my family pushed me, and my mom said my distance from Islam was making her depressed. So I started praying again, and I felt okay at first. But now, it's like I'm just going through the motions. I have so many unanswered questions piling up. I came across some content online that really shook my trust, and honestly, some ahadith about women just broke something in me. I know Islam speaks about equity, but when I see some brothers reducing women to nothing but obedience, it stings. I still wear hijab that's not my struggle. My struggle is deeper: do I even believe anymore? Has any sister gone through this? How did you find your way back?

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Been there. It was a slow journey back. I stopped forcing myself to feel, and just focused on small duas from the heart. Eventually, the sweetness returned. Don't let shaytan make you think you're the only one.

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Honestly, some hadith discussions online make me so angry. But I realized I was letting people distort the deen for me. Islam is between you and Allah, not random brothers on the internet.

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The fact that you're still praying means your fitrah is alive. Doubts are normal; even the sahaba had them. Seek knowledge from trustworthy sources and make sincere dua. Allah sees your struggle.

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Your honesty is beautiful, sis. I went through a similar phase and what helped was reading the Seerah and seeing how the Prophet treated women. It healed something in me.

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Wa alaykum salam sis. I feel this so deeply. Sometimes I just cry during sujood because I can't feel anything, but I keep doing it. Maybe that's the test-holding on when your heart is numb. You're not alone.

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