Struggling with faith as a Muslim woman – has anyone else felt this?
As-salamu alaykum. I don't even know where to start. I used to be so sure about my belief in Allah, but now... I'm not even sure if I can call myself Muslim anymore. I still pray five times a day, mostly on time, alhamdulillah. The physical acts aren't the issue. But inside, my heart feels empty. I don't feel Allah's presence like I used to. There was a time I was lazy with salah and almost gave up, but my family pushed me, and my mom said my distance from Islam was making her depressed. So I started praying again, and I felt okay at first. But now, it's like I'm just going through the motions. I have so many unanswered questions piling up. I came across some content online that really shook my trust, and honestly, some ahadith about women just broke something in me. I know Islam speaks about equity, but when I see some brothers reducing women to nothing but obedience, it stings. I still wear hijab – that's not my struggle. My struggle is deeper: do I even believe anymore? Has any sister gone through this? How did you find your way back?