My Heart Leans Toward Islam, but My Family Is Christian

I’m not sure where to begin. I live with my parents, and ever since I was little, I’ve felt a strong pull to Islam. It always seemed so peaceful and beautiful, and deep down I’ve believed in Allah for ages, but I never wanted to let my family down. As I grew older, I drifted from Christianity and even went through an atheist phase. I once dabbled in witchcraft too, and I feel so much regret about that. Now, I truly want to turn away from sinful ways and grow close to Allah. But here’s the thing: where I live, Islamophobia is widespread and awful. I’m scared of how people might react out in public-a white girl in hijab would likely face nasty comments, like being called brainwashed, just because some can’t accept different choices. The biggest hurdle is my family. They would never let me wear hijab, get a Quran, or pray. Even hinting at my feelings would make them despise me. I told my mom I find Islam lovely, and she launched into a rant about how terrible it is, which broke my heart. My dad’s even more strict-he’s said I couldn’t stay with him if I decided to revert. My grandmother is a devout Christian from Poland, a really Christian country, and she’d feel the same. Should I wait until I move out to start building that bond with Allah? Or just face the fear now? And will Allah be angry with me because of the witchcraft I did when I was younger? I pray not. JazakAllah khair in advance. :)