Overwhelmed by Doubts in Salah and Wudhu
I’m in real need of advice. Lately, especially this month, praying and making wudhu have become so hard. May Allah forgive me if I say anything wrong. I now feel scared and anxious every time a prayer time comes. I have a serious problem with doubts. I end up spending hours on each prayer because I keep redoing wudhu over and over, and then I repeat the prayer again and again, fearing I might have missed something. I’m struggling a lot. I know we should ignore these doubts since they come from shaitan, but my fear that my prayer or wudhu won’t be accepted is even bigger. I cry every day now because of how difficult prayer and wudhu have become. I don’t know what to do anymore. I literally redo wudhu so many times my skin is getting affected. Even if I see my arm or foot is wet, I doubt myself-even though I just washed those parts. Some prayers, I manage to do them calmly, when I make wudhu calmly too, without doubts. But if even a tiny thing disturbs that peace, that’s it. I get so anxious that I repeat the prayer for hours because I can’t focus at all. Please, any suggestions are welcome. I’m at my wit’s end. I miss the days when prayer and wudhu felt peaceful. I don’t know how to get better.