Navigating My Spiritual Journey: Between Heart and Mind
As-salamu alaykum everyone, I hope you're all in the best of faith. I'm an 18-year-old sister and I wanted to share something that's been weighing on my heart. I grew up without any religion but embraced Islam about 7 months ago, guided by my husband who introduced me to this beautiful deen. Before that, I was following Christianity for nearly two years after leaving atheism. While Islam makes so much sense to me logically and I believe in its truth-especially knowing the Quran has been preserved for over 1400 years-I sometimes feel a stronger emotional pull towards my past experiences in Christianity. Recently, I visited a church with a family member and ended up crying for hours afterward, reminiscing about how I felt closer to Allah, subhanahu wa ta'ala, during that time. It's confusing because I know Islam is the truth, yet my heart aches with memories. I worry about staying on the right path and seeking Allah's mercy, as I've learned that rejecting the truth after it's clear isn't forgiven. I'm just trying to balance my logic and emotions while staying faithful. Jazakum Allahu khayran for listening and for any supportive advice.