In Need of Every Dua You Can Spare
Assalamu alaikum everyone. I've hit a really tough spot in my medical studies. I passed my other subjects well, but I failed one specific course, so now I have to take a make-up exam. This is my first time ever being in this situation, and it's the only thing standing between me and moving up to fourth year. Tomorrow is my final oral exam for this subject. After that, it's just a waiting game to see the results and find out if I can advance or if I'll have to repeat the entire year. Honestly, I don't have the funds to repeat a year, and mentally, I don't think I can handle it either. This whole supplementary exam process has already taken such a heavy toll on me-I even had my first ever panic attack because I was so terrified of failing and letting everyone down. I’m asking sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, for anyone reading this to please make dua for me. Pray that I pass this exam and that I never have to repeat a year, especially when I’m so close to finishing. I’m trying my hardest to hold onto hope in myself and, most importantly, my trust in Allah (swt). It’s just so difficult, especially since this isn’t the first time I’ve failed this exact subject, even though I studied intensely and made constant du'a. Right now, I’ll see my classmates getting their new university ID cards for the next year, and none of them seem to carry the same anxiety and fear that’s weighing me down. Wallahi, it is incredibly hard and painful. I keep wondering what I did wrong, especially when I know some who passed didn't study nearly as much as I did and were out socializing while I stayed home to focus. Yet, I'm the one who failed, and they passed. I truly don’t know what else to do. I’m in a horrible position and I need all the du'a and support I can possibly get. Jazakallahu khayran for any prayers you can send my way.