I'm not Muslim but I'm reading the Qur'an and had a strange experience
As-salamu alaykum, Hi everyone, This is my first time writing here, and I'd like some thoughts. I've been a non-believer since childhood; my family isn't religious and neither am I. I recently started reading the Qur'an because my wife-to-be is Muslim, and I want to understand her faith better. I get the idea of prophets being sent to correct earlier messages and that the Qur'an is the final revelation. I like many of the teachings, and I want to read the whole book once to get a full picture. Being very rational, I look for proof (for example, I accept the Big Bang explanation for the earth's origin, etc.). Last night I read more before sleeping. My partner was scared of the dark while we were traveling, so she played an audio recitation of the Qur'an to comfort herself. I must have woken up a couple of times, and each time my thoughts and dreams were about the Qur'an - maybe because of the recitation playing. I have the sense that I woke up speaking some Arabic (which I don't know), but it's fuzzy and I can't tell if it really happened or if it was a dream. When I woke I had a strong impression I had "drawn" the number 41, and my partner said something like, “That’s great! Too bad you didn’t get number 44.” Those two numbers kept running through my head, and the first thing I did was check Surah 41, verse 44. I read it and it said that if the Qur'an were in a language other than Arabic people would complain it isn't explained, and that for believers it is guidance and healing while for disbelievers it is like deafness and blindness. Also, before I fell asleep, for reasons I can’t explain because I’d never done this before, I silently repeated “Allahu Akbar” three times in my head. Earlier my partner had explained a verse I didn’t understand, and I told her, “Sorry if I misunderstood; I’m following you.” I don’t know what to make of this. Is it a sign, pure coincidence, or something else? I’ve only been reading the Qur'an for a couple of weeks. Why me? My partner isn’t forcing anything on me - I do my own reading and she only answers my questions. I’d appreciate your perspectives and any insight. JazakAllahu khairan.