how do i find peace when my family is so broken

salam everyone, i'm just really struggling right now and need to vent. sometimes it hits me so hard that i'll never have that normal, healthy childhood. my father is incredibly abusive-he curses at us constantly, used to hit us, and treats my mom like garbage. while other dads make dua for their kids, mine wishes harm on us. he says things i can't even repeat, just wild and disgusting words no father should ever utter, and it messes with my mental health so much. i genuinely can't stand hearing it, it's so vile. and astagfirullah, i sometimes catch myself feeling jealous of people with a normal father-not even a loving one, just normal-and a peaceful home. it hurts so deeply. how do i accept this reality? how do i start healing? and when he goes off, i end up screaming to make him stop because i just want the pain to end before it breaks me more. but then i feel awful because we're taught not to raise our voice to parents. so what can i do instead? also my brother treats my mom horribly-he yells at her all the time, and my heart aches for her. she doesn't deserve this from her husband or her son. my brother's mean to me too, and my sister also hurts me and makes things harder for mom. it's just painful having a family like this, you know? i long for a healthy, loving home so badly. any advice or duas would mean the world.