Feeling my Imaan weaken and not sure where to turn.
Assalamu alaikum, lately-maybe for the past month or two-I’ve noticed my trust in Allah ta'ala slipping. I really don’t want it to keep going down; I want my faith strong, but I can’t shake these doubts sometimes, wondering if maybe it’s all not real. My duas don’t seem to get answered, and I feel only a weak connection with Allah. I’ve always believed our minds are powerful, and maybe that’s made me a bit arrogant without even realizing it. Alhamdulillah, I still fast every Ramadan and have started praying more regularly, and I’ll keep putting in the effort insha’Allah, but I don’t like the way my head works-I think very logically, so that might be part of it. Another thing is I used to get so stressed over tiny things to avoid sinning, like if I accidentally glanced at someone and felt a fleeting thought, I’d rush to repent even though it wasn’t on purpose, or I’d ask forgiveness for thoughts I didn’t even agree with. It kind of burned me out and made deen feel like a heavy duty. In the worst case, if I stay like this but keep trying for Allah’s sake, will I still be doomed on Yawm al-Qiyamah? I really need to strengthen my imaan. I hope someone can help me out.