Feeling Like There’s No Light Ahead

Lately, life’s been really heavy, and it feels like nothing’s going right. Every time I make dua, hoping for some relief, the opposite happens. Year after year, things just get harder, and I’m left wondering why. I’m not asking for anything wrong, yet my struggles keep piling up. I’ve been trying to become a better Muslim these past months, changing myself for the sake of Allah, but it seems like my tests only increase. Honestly, I’m at a point where I question the purpose of it all. I’d never act on those thoughts-I know it’s haram-but they’re there daily. What’s the point if everything keeps getting worse? I can’t bear a future that’s just more pain. I don’t even want to make dua anymore because it feels like nothing changes. At first, I just needed a sign of comfort from Allah, but now I just need one thing to go right, just one. I want to hold onto hope in Allah, but it’s so hard when I keep getting disappointed. Sorry this is all over the place-I don’t expect anyone to fix this. I just needed to let it out.