I only turn to Allah when I need something-anyone else struggle with this?

I feel a bit shy sharing this, but I really need advice, not criticism. It’s like I go through waves-I’ll pray regularly for a bit, then just stop without meaning to, even after telling myself I’ll keep it up. And every time I stop, the guilt kicks in. Then, when I’m really hoping for something, like landing a scholarship, suddenly I’m super motivated to pray again. What bothers me is how much I dislike feeling like my salah is only because I want something from Allah. Now, I want to get back into praying, but a part of me worries my intention is just tied to wanting that scholarship. That makes me feel fake. But honestly, I truly want to have a real connection with Allah and be someone who prays out of love and duty, not just when I need a favor. Has anyone else been here? How did you find consistency without it feeling like a transaction? Please be gentle-I’m really trying to improve.