Feeling Lost and Hopeless

Assalamu alaikum, I’m a sister who wears hijab. Lately, I’ve been struggling with overwhelming thoughts and feel like I’ve messed up in so many ways. Back in 9th grade, I got emotionally attached to someone, and it really threw me off track. It wasn’t their fault-I was just too obsessed and couldn’t let go. That year, I failed all my classes and fell into depression. The next year, we reconnected briefly, and even though we didn’t officially get back together, we still crossed boundaries, and I ended up failing again. Now I’m in 11th grade, my GPA is really low, and my parents are disappointed because it looks like I won’t get into the college I dreamed of. Coming from a strict background, the pressure feels crushing. I’ve cut ties with that person now, but I’m stuck in average-level classes because I couldn’t qualify for the advanced ones, and it’s embarrassing when most of my peers are in them. I worked really hard this first term of 11th grade and managed not to fail, but my grades are still low and won’t help my average much. Sometimes I wonder if I’m just not smart enough, and it feels like everyone looks down on me. I only have one friend because I struggle socially and people often think I’m odd-and even she doesn’t reach out much or spend time with me. It’s like I’m meant to fail. I know others have it harder, and I pray for those suffering in places like Palestine that they find relief and happiness. But here I am, feeling like anyone else would’ve handled things better, and I’m left wondering if my only options are a miracle or giving up. I’m not the best Muslim-I’ve completed the Quran once, I pray but sometimes delay or miss prayers, and I don’t always wear my hijab perfectly. I’ve been making dua for my situation to improve, but it feels like maybe it’s just over for me. Since I have no control, I’m asking if there’s hope-can increased prayer and effort turn things around, or am I too far gone? Jazakallahu khairan for listening.