Am I wrong for wanting to step back from my married friends with kids? 😭

Assalamu alaikum, I feel so guilty admitting this but I really can’t connect with my friend circle anymore 😭 I’m 30, single, and child-free, while all my friends are now wives and mothers. I adore my nieces and nephews and I live with them, so it’s not that I dislike children, but when I go out, I don’t want every gathering to be about kids’ parks, baby showers, or parenting chats. Sometimes they step away and I’m left awkwardly watching the little ones, and honestly I just can’t be bothered 😭 I crave adult talk, shopping, nice meals, Pilates, beauty routines, and some freedom. Then I feel bad because I know they’re just in a different phase of life. One friend keeps saying how grateful she is she married at 26 and talks about those marrying later like it’s embarrassing-even if she doesn’t mean me, it still stings because I’m 30 and unmarried. She also goes on about her perfect life, perfect husband, and how her way is basically the ideal. I get she’s happy, but it makes me feel my life is somehow lacking because I’m not where they are yet. Then my best friend always wants me to chip in for gifts, plan baby showers, and organize parties for people I’m not even close to, and I’m realizing I just don’t enjoy it anymore. Also, when I share what I love-like handbags, nails, lashes, Pilates, beauty topics-I feel judged, like my interests are shallow compared to theirs which revolve around husbands, pregnancies, and kids now. Honestly, I think I need some distance because if I already live with kids at home and spend time with my nieces and nephews, when I go out I don’t really want to be around more children. I know that sounds harsh, but I find kid-centered hangouts draining and boring for me personally 😭 I don’t know how to say this without sounding bitter, but I truly feel disconnected and left out lately because everyone’s life revolves around marriage and children, and mine doesn’t.