Haaɓde e diina wonde debbo juulɗo – mbele wonɗo goɗɗo meeɗi ɗum?

As-salamu alaykum. Mi anndaa kadi hol to puɗɗotoo. Mi meeɗi wonde mi hoolike no feewi e goonɗinal am e Allah, amma jooni... mi hoolotoo kadi e mi waawi wiɗde hoore am juulɗo. Mi juulataa haa jooni laabi joy e ñalawma, ɓuri heen sahaaji, alhamdulillah. Golle ɓanndu wonaa caɗeele. Amma nder, ɓernde am ina nannga tanaa. Mi nanataa yeeso Allah hono no mi nanunoo. Wakkati gooto miɗo leƴƴa e juulde, haa mi ɓadii woppude, kono ɓesngu am yuɓɓini kam, yumma am wi'i woɗɗude am e diina lislaam ina nannngina mo tampere. Ndeen mi fuɗɗii juulde kadi, mi nani seeɗa seeda fuɗɗam. Amma jooni, ina nanndi miɗo waɗa tan ko rewata. Miɗo jogii ƴamol keewngel ɗe njowititiiɗe. Mi yiyi won e kabaaruuji e gooto e lowre internet ɗi tampiinde hoolaare am, e goonga, won e ahaadiiji dow rewɓe kaaƴi huunde nder am. Mi andi lislaam wolwana e pottal, amma nde mi yiyi won e banndiraaɓe ɓe ustata rewɓe haa to ngoƴaare, ina muusana am. Mi huutoroo hijab haa jooni – ɗum wonaa caɗeele am. Caɗeele am ina luggi ɓurɗe: mbele mi hoolii kadi taw? Mbele won banndu debbo goɗɗo ɗuɗɗaa ɗum? Hol no keɓir-ɗaa laawol maa ɓurtugol?