When Du'aa Feels Unheard...
A few years ago, I went through a really tough time, a deep depression by Allah's decree. My body now carries scars from that period on my arms and legs-a reminder of a state where I couldn't see a future for myself. For so long, I've covered them up, even wearing long sleeves in the summer. Every single day, I've made sincere du'aa to Allah, the Healer, asking Him to remove these scars. I've even tried some medical treatments, but because the scars are old (about three years now), they fade so slowly. I feel lost, SubhanAllah. The emotional pain is still heavy, even though I no longer harm myself. For three years, I've consistently asked Allah in my prayers to take these scars away, and I don't see the change I hope for. I pray, 'Ya Allah, either ease this burden for me or take my soul.' Sometimes the hopelessness creeps in-am I just speaking into a void? I beg for a sign, for a miracle, and then feel so alone and unworthy of even addressing my Creator. I guess I'm just wondering... if a du'aa remains seemingly unanswered for this long, could it ever be answered? Is it because I'm not worthy? Honestly, I just feel so lost, like my tears and pleas are unheard. Has anyone else felt this way?