Struggling with strong desires and past trauma as a Muslim man

Assalamu alaikum, I'm a brother who experienced sexual abuse as a child. A woman exposed me to inappropriate content and involved me in physical acts, telling me it was our secret. For years, my desires were almost non-existent-I felt asexual-which let me focus on life without chasing women. But since earlier this year, my urges have skyrocketed. Now, whenever I get an opportunity for zina, whether at work or online, I find it really hard to say no. Ever since that childhood incident, I've turned to adult content to calm my body, and I still do. But the urges are getting so strong I'm scared I might commit zina if another woman shows interest. How do other Muslims with high desires cope? It's exhausting having these thoughts almost 24/7. I feel disgusted with myself and like a bad Muslim. I don't pray as often as I should, but I make dua every day asking Allah to remove these thoughts from my mind. Has anyone been through something similar? How did you overcome it? I've scheduled therapy to work through the trauma and manage these urges.