Struggling with a newfound understanding this Ramadan...
Assalamu alaikum, everyone. Alhamdulillah, this Ramadan has been a special time of getting closer to Allah. I'm trying my best with my prayers, reading more Quran, and making more dua. I truly feel, insha'Allah, that this month will be unforgettable because my heart feels certain that Islam is the truth. The other day, I was looking up some common haram habits we might have, hoping to improve, insha'Allah. I came across some discussions about music. To be honest, it hit me hard. Music has been a huge part of my life for years-I've been playing guitar for six years, I'm in a band, and I sing. Reading that it's considered haram, or at least strongly discouraged, was a real shock. I'm not a perfect Muslim by any means-Allah yahdini, I'm still working on myself-but this discovery really made me sad. I even cried a bit, astaghfirullah. I'm really confused and need some advice. How do I come to terms with this? More importantly, how do I step away from playing guitar? It's been my joy, my comfort, and my hobby for so long. Astaghfirullah, it feels like I'm being asked to leave behind a sin that I've loved deeply, and I don't know where to start. Any kind words or guidance would mean so much right now.