Struggling to Keep Up with Salah
I finished high school a few weeks back, and for like 2-3 years I was super into my deen. I made sure to pray all five prayers and it wasn’t even hard for me, you know? But now... I don’t know what’s up, I just kinda stopped caring. Or maybe I do care, since I’m writing this. It’s confusing. Like, I still believe in Islam, no doubt in my heart, but that belief just isn't pushing me to actually pray. I'm so burned out too. I cut out music, stopped cracking bad jokes, all that stuff for years. Now I'm like, I don't care anymore. I feel like I was living someone else's life, like I didn't even have my own personality. I don't need to be all showy about religion, but I at least wanna get back to praying my five daily salah. It's ironic 'cause I used to be the one giving advice on this kinda stuff, and now I'm the one struggling lol. I know folks will probably comment with Qur'an verses and reminders, but honestly I've heard it all before. Thing is, I know it, but I just can't bring myself to act. I'll pray one day, then skip the next, then pray again, miss two days... it's a cycle. And it weighs on me big time knowing I’ve got like a month’s worth of missed prayers I need to make up. I know people say you can make them up by praying an extra rak’ah after the fardh or whatever. Maybe I'll get to that eventually, insha’Allah. I just wanna feel that connection again, ya know?