Struggling to break haram online ties - need help and dua

As-salamu alaykum brothers and sisters, I feel completely lost and weighed down by guilt. I know these free chats and online relationships are wrong - a kind of zina of the tongue/eyes - and they only bring pain. Still, I keep falling back into them and it’s tearing me apart. My situation: The toxic attachment: I was involved with a woman online. She started ignoring me for 17 days. Instead of walking away with self-respect, I acted desperate and even apologised for things I hadn’t done, just to get her attention. She read it and still ignored me. She made me feel worthless. I finally blocked her recently to protect my sanity, but with the New Year coming, Shaytan keeps whispering at me. I want to unblock her, wish her a “Happy New Year,” and try to reconnect. I know she’ll probably ignore or hurt me again, but I’m terrified of losing that possibility. The distraction: To numb the hurt, I started talking to another woman. We bonded emotionally, but when she did a face reveal I realised I’m not attracted to her. Instead of being honest or stopping, I’m slowly fading away because I’m scared of being alone. I know this is unfair and sinful, yet I keep using her to fill an empty place. I feel I’ve lost my dignity chasing people who don’t value me, and in the process I’ve been disobeying Allah. I truly want to repent. I want sincere tawbah and to stop these conversations completely until a halal route appears. But the loneliness and the urge to unblock that first woman are overwhelming. Has anyone else been this deep in it? How did you break free from caring about people this much and find contentment with only Allah? How do I stop myself from sending that message? JazakAllah khair for any advice or duas.