When my wudu keeps breaking and my heart feels heavy

Salam alaikum, I need to get something off my chest. For a while now, I’ve been dealing with gas that won’t let me keep wudu, especially around Maghrib, Isha, and Fajr. It’s exhausting-I end up making wudu five times just to get through one salah. I remember waking up for Tahajjud every single night, but I had to stop because I couldn’t even hold wudu for two rakats of Tahajjud and two of Fajr. By the time I’d redo my wudu again and again, Fajr would come in and Tahajjud would be missed. I begged Allah in dua, even during Ramadan and the last ten nights, but nothing shifted. So I sort of gave up and just started doing the bare minimum-fardh salah only, and only the fardh parts. Then, alhamdulillah, for a whole month the problem went away. I was overjoyed and started praying more sunnahs, and I made sujood to thank Allah. But now the issue is back, and I can’t understand why. Why would Allah let this happen right after I showed so much gratitude and upped my worship? It feels like something is pushing me away from salah, and that scares me. Without that connection in prayer, what do I have? I’m dealing with severe anxiety and depression too, and all I want is to pour my heart out to Allah in salah, but I can’t even do that. Sometimes I wonder, what’s the point of trying?