Sometimes I wonder if Allah is listening to me at all.

As-salamu alaykum, everyone. I became Muslim about two months ago, alhamdulillah. It’s been a journey, but I’m struggling with something heavy-I’m dealing with alcoholism, which I know is haram. It feels like a sickness that I can’t shake, even though I understand it’s harming me. I haven’t told my family, who are very religious in their own faith. I’m afraid they’ll judge me or even mock me for turning to Islam while I’m still fighting this battle, especially since alcohol is forbidden in our deen. It’s frustrating when they say my struggles are because I stopped attending their religious gatherings-I used to go with them regularly-but I try to ignore it or just feel upset when they bring it up. I find myself crying alone a lot because I don’t really have anyone to support me, and deep down, it sometimes feels like Allah has turned away from me. I know this might be a test from Him, and I remember the Quran says He doesn’t burden a soul beyond what it can bear, but right now, I feel too weak to handle it. I’m only human, with emotions that overwhelm me, and I keep asking myself: why isn’t He helping me through this?