Salaam - Need Advice: I've Lost My Motivation for Years

As-salamu alaykum. A few years back I was in a band and really into making music (I even set up a DIY studio). After COVID I decided to pursue music more seriously and moved to Australia. I met great people, joined scenes I loved, and felt like I belonged - but then I had to face a hard truth: despite everything, I probably wouldn't “make it” as a musician the way I hoped. That realization sent me into a downward spiral. I had panic attacks and fell into a deep depression. I moved back home to Peru and took a steady office job to find some routine and try to feel better. That helped a bit - I’m not in constant misery like when I first returned - but I still feel defeated and like I failed. Every time I try to reconnect with music it feels hard, and I question my relationship with it. I’ve tried finding other outlets: online tests, vocational coaching, looking into teaching or social work. Those things seem like they could suit me, and they’re fine, but they don’t light a fire in me. I used to have a clear direction, and when that door closed, a lot of my joy went with it. I know in theory I should try to build a healthier relationship with music: focus on the process, on making for Allah’s blessing and for my own satisfaction, not on worldly success. But I haven’t managed that. It’s been over two years. When I try to make again the hurt and doubt come back - I feel like I’m not good enough, or that maybe I was after the wrong things from the start. Then I catch myself wanting to want it again, and I get confused. Has anyone gone through something like this? Did you ever fall back in love with what once motivated you? How did you do it while staying true to your faith and responsibilities? Any practical advice, duas, or small steps that helped you rebuild motivation would mean a lot. Jazakum Allahu khairan for any thoughts.