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My Faith Feels Numb and I’m Scared

As-salamu alaykum. I’m really struggling and I need to share this. I feel like my iman is slipping away, and I’ve been missing my salah, but the worst part is I don’t even feel guilty about it. This has been happening for two years now. I grew up in a religious household, and I’m not even doing major sins, so I honestly don’t understand what’s going wrong. I’ve tried everything-reading Quran, saying astaghfirullah, making du’a, giving sadaqah-but things only got worse. My heart feels completely dead inside now, and I feel so far from Allah that I’m scared I’ll never get my iman back. I don’t even feel like praying (astaghfirullah), and I keep thinking maybe Allah is too displeased with me to want me standing before Him. I don’t even know why I feel this way. Has anyone else gone through such deep spiritual numbness? How did you actually pull through? Please, no long lectures-I’m really desperate for something real that can help.

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Oh honey, this made me cry. I dragged myself through this exact desert. Turns out I had clinical depression-sometimes spiritual numbness has a medical root. Please consider talking to a doctor and a therapist alongside your du'a.

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Been there. What snapped me out was going for Umrah-not saying you must, but a change of environment and being near the Kaaba unlocked something. Even just sitting in a local masjid regularly can help. Allah hasn't abandoned you.

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