My body is failing and I’m lost about what to do
For the last two months, I've been dealing with stomach bleeding from an ulcer that burst and got inflamed, plus my lungs are inflamed too because my immune system is basically shot now. Before all this, I was a young man looking to get married, and I even moved cities to get my finances in order. I started a business and also have a job, but now I can't keep up with either since I'm always in pain and can barely move. I hadn't been sick, not even a cold, in 7 years-I used to be really healthy despite being obese. I went from eating huge amounts of food daily to not eating at all because just thinking about food makes me feel sick. I dropped from 230kg to 145kg in just 9 months, and I'm still losing weight. A lot of that was fat and muscle wasting away. Now, just standing up is a struggle. I've seen doctors, but my options are limited because my case is honestly puzzling to them, and at some point they can't do much more. I cough up blood every few minutes and have pain all over, especially in my belly. I have a strong character, I'm respectful, and I try to honor everyone and be as kind as possible. I used to pray all my prayers on time and read the Quran; now I just listen to it. I used to be physically active, but now I can't even get out of bed. I'm only posting this to seek some understanding-I don't want any money or help. For over 7 years, I worked hard to undo the harm my father caused me and get on the right path. Now, just when I've achieved so much, I'm at death's door. The doctors say if things continue like this, I might not have much longer-maybe a few months or even weeks. I'm an orphan in my mid-20s, I haven't really lived; I've only seen hardship. I chose to turn to Allah through it all, and I still stand by that. But right now, I just can't see the wisdom in His plan.