Looking to Rekindle My Faith and Turn My Life Around

I really want to change my life. Five years back, I had it all: a good job, strong ties with family and friends, and savings. I was praying regularly, learning Arabic, listening to Islamic talks, diving into Islamic history, and exploring why faith matters. I felt so blessed and content-like my days were filled with Barakah. But the last two years have been incredibly tough. I lost my job and my savings. I tried applying to study abroad, but immigration issues kept blocking me every time. All that stress made me irritable. I started arguing with my parents and family. Slowly, I missed prayers, stopped reading Quran, and fell into bad habits like watching inappropriate content and listening to music. I’d stopped using foul language for years, but now I swear more than I talk. I used to be active and fit, but now I just lie in bed all day, avoiding everyone. There were moments I even doubted my faith. But because I’d once deeply reflected on Allah’s existence, I never fully let go of believing in Him. I knew He was there, but I felt angry and abandoned. Sometimes, in panic, I’d grab my prayer mat late at night and pray with tears streaming, hoping He’d ease my struggles-but I’m still at my lowest. Now, I feel it’s time to turn things around. I’m not sure about my career, but I want to regain that spiritual closeness, hope, and trust in Allah I once had. I’ve been trying lately, but often only manage Jummah prayers. Note: I wrote this while still feeling that anger, betrayal, and confusion, so sorry if it’s a bit scattered. I just poured out my thoughts. Any advice or support would be truly appreciated. Assalamu alaikum.