Islam Has Brought Joy and Trials
Assalamu alaikum. I embraced Islam about two years ago. Today, the woman I dreamed of marrying left me after a year and a half because she couldn't handle the pressure from her family anymore. I'm a Muslim, but I come from a white American Christian background, and simply put, her family didn't accept me. I'm not sure if it's because of my race, my family, or that I wasn't born into Islam-I just don't know. I feel so much anger, hurt, and sadness, all mixed up. The hardest thing is, she and her family were the only Muslims I knew, and I truly cared for each of them. Losing them means I no longer know a single Muslim in real life, so I'm completely on my own. I've never stepped into a mosque and I'm not sure how to approach one. Plus, I'm under a lot of spiritual pressure from my own family. This inner struggle has really brought me down to my lowest point, and I just don't have any strength left. I just hope Allah understands.