I’m Struggling to Forgive Myself

Earlier last year, I went for Umrah with my family, and I was overjoyed. But sadly, I ended up committing sins I never imagined I’d fall into-the same things I once judged others for. Now, my peace feels shattered, and my life seems broken. Before Umrah, I felt like a devout Muslim, and it hurts that I let my Iman slip when I had a chance to become better. I can’t forgive myself; I’m disgusted, and I see no way forward. Sometimes I feel like Allah is angry with me. I’m just a terrible Muslim. I turned 18 last month, and I really dislike who I’ve become. Oh Allah, I wish I could go back and change my past.