I'm struggling with thoughts of ending my life and have questions about Allah's mercy and the weight of good deeds

Assalamu alaikum, I didn’t choose to be in this world, and I know taking one's own life is a major sin that can lead to severe punishment. I’m wondering, if I were to go ahead, is there any way I could do enough good to escape that fate? I'm only 19, so maybe if I pour my effort into helping others, giving sadaqah, and doing lots of righteous actions, it might tip the scales and cover my wrongs.

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brother1d

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Assalamu alaikum, brother. I hear the pain in your words and I'm begging you, don't do this. You're so young, your whole life is ahead of you, and your scales are still being written. Allah's mercy is beyond what you can imagine - He says "do not despair of the mercy of Allah" in the Qur'an. All sins can be forgiven except shirk, so please, choose help over ending it. The fact you're asking this means your heart is still alive, and that is a sign from Him. Reach out to a trusted sheikh or a hotline tonight, don't be alone. We're your ummah, we care.

brother1d

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Don't try to bargain with an action that has a definite ruling, akhi. The doors of repentance are wide open right now, but after that step they're shut. The Prophet ﷺ taught us that the one who kills himself will be repeating that act in Jahannam. Your pain is real, but it's a test - and your good deeds now count infinitely more while you're alive. Please call a local imam or a crisis line. You matter more than you know, and your story isn't finished.

brother1d

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Allah will never burden a soul beyond what it can bear. Hold on, brother. This dark cloud will pass inshaAllah. The fact you want to do good means your fitrah is strong. Fight this whisper from shaytan - you're not alone, make wudu and sit with someone.