Finding my way back to Allah

Assalamu Alaikum everyone. Lately I've been feeling really far from Allah. My prayers feel rushed and I barely have the energy to make dua. During Ramadan, I really tried with all my salah, zikr, and duas, but with everything going on in my life now, finding peace seems so hard. It feels like I'm constantly being tested. While people around me are moving forward, I feel stuck in a cycle of challenges. I don't want to get into all the details, but my mother's health, my father's finances, and my sister's marriage situation have all been huge tests. Sometimes I lose hope that I'll ever have the life I dreamed of. Everything feels like it's falling apart, and what hurts the most is how this is affecting my connection with my Rab. Just this morning, making breakfast, I thought if only Allah was on my side, everything would be okay. Then I realized, if He wasn't, I wouldn't have this food or a roof over my head. That realization stings every time. I'm torn between being grateful for what I have and asking for more. A few years ago, I used to talk to Allah almost every night. My duas were answered quickly, sometimes right away. Now, when my duas feel more important than ever and could really change my life, it seems like they're not being heard. It breaks my heart to see my mother's tears when she makes dua and think that even her prayers aren't being answered. This might sound childish, but I'm scared of not being able to accept Allah's qadr. I just want to go back to when we were close and I didn't blame Him for every hard thing in my life. Any words of support would mean a lot. Please keep my mother's health in your duas. JazakAllah Khair.