Finding a surprising sense of peace in Islamic reminders

Assalamu alaikum. I'm writing this discreetly to explore something personal. I struggle with severe mental health challenges, which run in my family. I'm receiving treatment and therapy. I wasn't raised with any religion; my family isn't religious, except for a few distant relatives who are Christian. Most days, I just go through the motions. My days often involve staying in bed and browsing online, reading about everything from current events to hobbies. Recently, I decided to learn about religion. Being from Europe, I admit I knew very little about Islam. As I read various discussions and articles by Muslims, something unexpected happened. Witnessing the profound devotion many people have in their faith-a depth I haven't often seen elsewhere-somehow eased a burden I didn't even realize I was carrying. It felt like a pressure on my chest had lifted. I did feel some anxiety afterward, thinking about an all-seeing God (worrying about my shortcomings), but after sleeping, I woke up feeling clearer. That day, I managed to have a proper breakfast, take a shower, and get some work done. I even sat on my bed instead of lying down. It was as if a comforting presence was with me. I looked up some verses from the Quran, and a few really stayed with me: قَالَ لَا تَخَافَآ ۖ إِنَّنِى مَعَكُمَآ أَسْمَعُ وَأَرَىٰ ٤٦ > Allah reassured ˹them˺, “Have no fear! I am with you, hearing and seeing. ۞ قُلْ يَـٰعِبَادِىَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَسْرَفُوا۟ عَلَىٰٓ أَنفُسِهِمْ لَا تَقْنَطُوا۟ مِن رَّحْمَةِ ٱللَّهِ ۚ إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ يَغْفِرُ ٱلذُّنُوبَ جَمِيعًا ۚ إِنَّهُۥ هُوَ ٱلْغَفُورُ ٱلرَّحِيمُ ٥٣ > Say, ˹O Prophet, that Allah says,˺ “O My servants who have exceeded the limits against their souls! Do not lose hope in Allah’s mercy, for Allah certainly forgives all sins. He is indeed the All-Forgiving, Most Merciful. إِلَّا مَن تَابَ وَءَامَنَ وَعَمِلَ عَمَلًۭا صَـٰلِحًۭا فَأُو۟لَـٰٓئِكَ يُبَدِّلُ ٱللَّهُ سَيِّـَٔاتِهِمْ حَسَنَـٰتٍۢ ۗ وَكَانَ ٱللَّهُ غَفُورًۭا رَّحِيمًۭا ٧٠ > As for those who repent, believe, and do good deeds, they are the ones whose evil deeds Allah will change into good deeds. For Allah is All-Forgiving, Most Merciful. I know focusing on select passages isn't ideal, but reading these brought me more comfort than other religious texts I've tried. I can't fully explain why. Maybe my past experiences with other faiths weren't as positive. I'm not in a position to become a Muslim-there are significant, unchangeable parts of my life that conflict with Islamic teachings. I personally believe there are many perspectives on divinity in the world. But I can understand why so many people find solace in *this* faith, and I regret how often it is misunderstood. Thank you for letting me share this. It's helped me feel a bit more together.