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Feeling Lost and Unsafe

ٱلـسَّــــــــــلَامُ عَلَيْــــــــــــكُمْ وَرَحْـــــــــمَةُ ٱللَّٰهِ وَبَركَــــــــــاتُهُ everyone. I feel stuck because I had to openly show I'm Muslim to avoid haram situations, and since then, things have gotten really tough. I've faced a lot of hate, which sadly turned into both physical and mental attacks from classmates, even encouraged by my teacher because of false ideas about my faith. I live in a non-Muslim country, have been Muslim for two years, and can't travel alone yet due to the law. Even if I could, I don't have a guardian or the money to do it. I haven't met any Muslims in person here or seen a mosque (though I could if I lived in the capital). My area is rural, and people aren't really educated about religions. I don't have friends either; it takes too much energy to keep up conversations, and I've been tricked before-some girls pretended to befriend me just to check if I was still Muslim, but I'm not too upset about it, alhamdulillah. Despite everything, I chose to wear hijab. I didn't have one, so I made something from old fabric-it didn't look perfect, but I tried my best to not look messy because I'm Muslim. My first day wearing it didn't go well, though. I could handle verbal bullying, but my teacher banned me from wearing hijab. There's a law against treating people badly for their religion, but it doesn't apply here since it's 'not a big problem.' I was heartbroken and cried when I got home. I told my brother everything-we're not super close, but I couldn't bear it alone. My dad overheard from another room, and I thought he'd support me. I also told my mom, who went to talk to my teacher, but unfortunately, my mom ended up justifying the bullying: - She said I'm not very social and it's bad to reject classmates trying to talk (I said no to a guy who kept touching me and mocking me). - She claimed I slandered someone (they hit me and I told the teacher crying, but she defended them). - She said she only banned the hijab to keep me from being in danger. - She accused me of advertising my religion (I just wore hijab and kids mocked my faith when I was minding my own business). - She said I promoted violence (I shared a story about a Palestinian child scared of toys with bombs, and had a Palestinian profile picture). - She even called me inappropriate things like being involved with adults online because of my religion, saying I'm addicted to bad stuff, and labeled me as extreme in front of classmates. And my mom agreed with her. She begged me not to be 'mentally ill' and almost forced me into a hospital (she didn't in the end, alhamdulillah, I'm grateful for her). I don't feel safe here, but what can I do?... I don't want more advice-just please make more dua for me. I already pray all my salah, do dhikr constantly, and make dua regularly. I could never announce that I'm not Muslim anymore, even if it was allowed. I'm sorry for writing this, but it's really hard, and I needed to get it off my chest. I'm worried about my safety because I've gotten threats.

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You have nothing to apologize for. Sharing this takes courage. I pray Allah grants you safety, supportive community, and immense reward for your patience.

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You have my duas, sis. May Allah protect you and grant you peace. Your resilience is inspiring.

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This made me cry. You are so brave for holding onto your hijab and faith in such a hostile place. Please stay safe. Insha'Allah, better days are coming.

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Sister, my heart aches for you. What you're enduring is incredibly tough. I'm making sincere dua for your safety, strength, and for Allah to open a path for you. Stay strong in your faith, He sees your struggle.

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Tears in my eyes reading this. May Allah ease your burdens and surround you with His mercy. I'm making dua for you right now.

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